I’m thinking about quitting my job at Target. The whole time I was working last night, I kept thinking about how I’m stuck in a rut. I’m waiting for something to happen, but there isn’t anything to wait for.
As much fun as my job is, I can’t let it hold me back. I’m not focused on my studying, my social life is nonexistent, and I’m not actively searching for “real” jobs. I like the money I’m getting, but it’s only useful for small luxuries, not for paying bills. I’m want to live on my own again, and I need a (much) better paying job for that.
I should leave Target, but I’m also scared of moving forward. Living at home with a menial job is safe but ultimately keeping me away from becoming an adult. I definitely won’t feel like I’m “all grown up” until I can stand on my own two feet.
I felt like an adult when I lived on my own in college and graduate school, but it was all an illusion. That life was temporary, and my parents paid for a lot of my expenses. I couldn’t stay in school forever (unless I teach, haha).
I know I need to make the jump from child to adult soon, but it’s still absolutely terrifying.